Too good to last

I knew it. It had to happen eventually. It was too good to be true. As of today, I am single again because I am completely incapable of being emotionally mature and talking about feelings. Well, I can but not until I know someone really, really well. I mean as in at least 6 months, maybe a year. Certainly not 2 months in. Anyway, that fucked it right up, but at least we parted on decent terms and hopefully, we will remain friendly. Still, fucked my week right up when I realised that I had to end it or risk causing a good deal of hurt to the other party. At least I did (with a little prompting) come to that realisation before any serious damage was done.

Fuck it. Back on the shelf - I know my place...

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The joys of the NHS

Today I had cause to visit an NHS clinic at a fairly large general
hospital. The website said that it was a walk in clinic and stupidly I
believed it. It was right in the sense that, strictly speaking, I
didn't need an appointment. However when I arrived at 5 I was told
there might be a bit of a wait, despite the almost empty waiting room.
No problem I thought, 45 minutes or even an hour is OK.

Over an hour and a half later I am still waiting. According to the
whiteboard in the waiting area there are 9 staff on duty, so how in
the name of frickin Chuck Norris does it take this long to be seen?
Why advertise it as a walk in clinic when they clearly can't organise
a walk in slot properly? I'd have happily made an appointment but the
website was quite glib in suggesting that there'd be no problem just
turning up.

So learn this lesson well - never, ever trust to sn NHS walk in
clinic, always book an appointment.

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New year, new start

Right, that's it. I've had enough of being a miserable sod. I've decided that it's high time I stopped moping about and made things happen this year. It is all going to change. I started internet dating again the other week and I've been on a few dates and this weekend just gone I met an absolutely gorgeous girl and we really clicked. We both really like each other and we're chatting every day and seeing each other again this weekend. Now, it's early days, make no mistake about it, but everything looks positive at the moment. I don't want to some over all soppy and start eulogising, but she is gorgeous - absolutely stunning. I am genuinely punching well above my weight and she thinks I'm 'ruggedly good looking' which I'm assured is a very good thing. Not that I've ever though of myself that way, ruggedly plain perhaps, but hell I'm not turning down a compliment like that!

I'm smiling. A lot. Which is pretty unusual for me at the best of times, so I am pretty damned happy right now. Of course, maybe it'll fizzle out or whatever, but even if it does (and I sincerely hope it doesn't), I will have had a fantastic time and now know that there are lots of gorgeous girls out there looking for someone just as I am and some of them seem to like me. So no matter what, I'm going to make this year work and that means being proactive in finding someone and finding a new job that actually pays me what I'm worth and then using the extra cash to pay off my debts (not that I have many) and then start saving properly for a house deposit.

But never fear, dear reader, for I will still feel the need to rant now and again, so the old me will still make comedic appearances to bring occasional mirth and eyebrow raising. But I'm not going to allow myself to be miserable through inertia and excuses.

Listening to: Hafdis Huld - Synchronised Swimmers

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Insight, foresight, more sight, the clock on the wall reads a quarter past midnight.

If you haven't heard this song, you should. One of the most perfect bits of turntablism ever made.

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Hahahahahahaha

I use a tracker on this blog just to see where in the world people come from who read whatever shite I'm spouting. I got a hit from New South Wales in Australia based on an ask.com search for "second hand Daewoo Matiz". Burn in hell fucker, wankers like you who buy these shit cars should be condemned to eternal agony.

Fuck you and goodnight.

Listening to: Degradead - Out Of Body Experience

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